Because that is all I have been doing for the past three days.
I had a cramp on my right side, Could it be implantation?
I am nauseous, early morning sickness?
I got a pimple, oh no early AF warning?
I am exhausted, hurry google whatit means!
Yea I think I have officially crossed over into crazy town.
Five days until I start testing and I can stop with the guessing games. I am also going on tuesday morning to get a Glucose test. I think it was called the 1 hour fasting test. So we shall see what that turns up. If it comes back abnormal I may be starting a new drug, if not then I am either doing one more cycle with the same protocal or I am taking a break. We shall see.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
The Crohn's Dilemma
So I know I have been talking a lot about the fertility stuff lately and not much else. So i figured I would write a little about Crohn's today.
So the Crohn's Dilemma is what I call the fear of going out into unknown situations. The first thing I look for whenever I go anywhere is the nearest bathroom. You never know when you are going to have to race to the bathroom when you have Crohn's. So it can be a little scary when you are going to do something that you don't know when or where there will be a bathroom. This a big reason why I don't hike. Well that and I don't like hiking.
However sometimes the dilemma will strike out of no where in a very familiar place. For instance this morning I went grocery shopping to the same store I always go shopping. Right when I was rounding the corner into the dairy aisle it hit. Cramping, feeling a little feverish, the undeniable need to run to the nearest bathroom. But what do I do with my full cart of groceries, including tons of frozen veggies. Thankfully the feeling passed after a minute of standing there debating. But it hit again in the check out line. I was lucky and held it till I got home. I grabbed the milk and frozen food and raced for the door. Threw everything on the counter, let the dogs out and ran for the bathroom. I was really doubting I would make it, but crisis averted, I made it.
So the Crohn's Dilemma is what I call the fear of going out into unknown situations. The first thing I look for whenever I go anywhere is the nearest bathroom. You never know when you are going to have to race to the bathroom when you have Crohn's. So it can be a little scary when you are going to do something that you don't know when or where there will be a bathroom. This a big reason why I don't hike. Well that and I don't like hiking.
However sometimes the dilemma will strike out of no where in a very familiar place. For instance this morning I went grocery shopping to the same store I always go shopping. Right when I was rounding the corner into the dairy aisle it hit. Cramping, feeling a little feverish, the undeniable need to run to the nearest bathroom. But what do I do with my full cart of groceries, including tons of frozen veggies. Thankfully the feeling passed after a minute of standing there debating. But it hit again in the check out line. I was lucky and held it till I got home. I grabbed the milk and frozen food and raced for the door. Threw everything on the counter, let the dogs out and ran for the bathroom. I was really doubting I would make it, but crisis averted, I made it.
I joined a blog roll!
I am not the most the most knowledgeable blogger on earth. I kinda just opened the site and started typing. But I am learning as I go along. I have been incredibly bored the past couple days because my hubby is at training for his new job every morning. As a result I have done some exploring and added a couple features to the blog.
First I joined a blog roll! Yay! I don't actually know what that means. I think my blog will just show up in a list of blogs about infertility. I added a link on the left to the blog roll if anyone wants to find some new ones to follow.
I also added an at a glance list of our Infertility treatments so far. It was a little depressing listing all that crap, but I am hoping it doesn't grow too much more. I also added a list of the blogs I follow. There are a couple about IF and a couple about baking. So I hope these things add to the blogging/reading experience. Enjoy!
First I joined a blog roll! Yay! I don't actually know what that means. I think my blog will just show up in a list of blogs about infertility. I added a link on the left to the blog roll if anyone wants to find some new ones to follow.
I also added an at a glance list of our Infertility treatments so far. It was a little depressing listing all that crap, but I am hoping it doesn't grow too much more. I also added a list of the blogs I follow. There are a couple about IF and a couple about baking. So I hope these things add to the blogging/reading experience. Enjoy!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
IUI # 3 Complete...
We went to our third IUI this morning at the crack of dawn and it went really well. My cervix wasn't nearly as b*tchy as it normally is which was nice. The hubinators sperm count rocked. Post wash it was 47 million, which is 2 million more than the last cycle.
I have a very very good feeling about this cycle. I feel like we got the timing perfect, I have been having pain on my right ovary area all day, which I am hoping is my ovulation pain, and there are tons of swimmers to meet the egg when it gets released. Plus my RE decided to put me on the progesterone supplements earlier this cycle. Normally I don't take them until 7 dpIUI when I get my blood work. But he said since my P2 level has been low for three cycles in a row we are going to assume I have an issue there and treat it early. So I will be on 200mg of Prometrium vaginally three times a day until the pregnancy test. Nothing quite as fun as shoving a little pill in your nether regions while at work.
On a funny note, I couldn't stop thinking about the special that was on the NeoGeo channel last week "Sizing Up Sperm" the whole time we were at the RE's. The show basically showed what the journey of sperm was like if they were the size of humans, it was actually pretty interesting. I kept envisioning the people that they used as sperm in the show getting washed in the centrifuge, or all the people crowded into the cath for the procedure. It actually kinda freaked me out. I mentioned this to my RE right after he did the insemination and he thought it was hilarious. So now I feel like I have a bunch of little people running around in my Uterus. Let's hope they find their target!
I have a very very good feeling about this cycle. I feel like we got the timing perfect, I have been having pain on my right ovary area all day, which I am hoping is my ovulation pain, and there are tons of swimmers to meet the egg when it gets released. Plus my RE decided to put me on the progesterone supplements earlier this cycle. Normally I don't take them until 7 dpIUI when I get my blood work. But he said since my P2 level has been low for three cycles in a row we are going to assume I have an issue there and treat it early. So I will be on 200mg of Prometrium vaginally three times a day until the pregnancy test. Nothing quite as fun as shoving a little pill in your nether regions while at work.
On a funny note, I couldn't stop thinking about the special that was on the NeoGeo channel last week "Sizing Up Sperm" the whole time we were at the RE's. The show basically showed what the journey of sperm was like if they were the size of humans, it was actually pretty interesting. I kept envisioning the people that they used as sperm in the show getting washed in the centrifuge, or all the people crowded into the cath for the procedure. It actually kinda freaked me out. I mentioned this to my RE right after he did the insemination and he thought it was hilarious. So now I feel like I have a bunch of little people running around in my Uterus. Let's hope they find their target!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Can't Sleep....
My IUI is in 4 hours and I can't sleep. I fell asleep at about 1am and woke up again at 2:15 am. I was so sure when I woke up that it was going to be time to get up and get going. Now I can't get back to sleep. It partly nerves I know. The procedure is super easy (just like a pap only my cervix likes to be stupid) I am just pertrified I am getting my hopes up too much. I want this to work so much. I keep visualizing how I will react when I get the news that I am PG, or how I will tell my family. I even daydream about giving birth and sleepless nights. Which is kinda ironic.
I envy my husband so much! He is upstairs right now snoaring away, not a care in the world. He gets to wake up roll over do his buisness and he just has to go along for the ride the rest of the day. Sometimes being a dude does seem so much simpler.
I envy my husband so much! He is upstairs right now snoaring away, not a care in the world. He gets to wake up roll over do his buisness and he just has to go along for the ride the rest of the day. Sometimes being a dude does seem so much simpler.
Friday, March 19, 2010
For the few who don't know...
So I know that most people that follow me (all 19 of you!) know what a trigger shot is, but I figured those of you who don't might like a little more info. Let me set the scene for you:
It is 7:30 pm on a Friday night. I am at work, I have no choice but to do the injection in the work bathroom. So I stuff the box into my purse and slink through the hallways.
Once in the bathroom I get a huge length of paper towels and lay it on the back of the toilet tank. I open the box to find a little plastic sleeve with a pre-filled syringe. 
Inside this little syringe is a pre-determined amount of Ovidrel. The best description I have found for what a trigger does is "Ovidrel PreFilled Syringe is used in fertility treatment cycles to help follicles mature and trigger the release of mature eggs from a woman's ovaries."
It is a subcutaneous (just under the skin) injection. The actual injection really isn't that bad b/c it is such a small needle. Barely bigger than my pinkie finger nail. 
Once everything is all lined up on the back of the toilet I tuck my shirt into my bra and fold my jeans down. I will spare you the pics of my bare belly. Next I clean an area about an inch from my belly button with an alcohol swap. Then I squeeze the injection area between two fingers, inject the needle into the skin and squeeze the plunger on the syringe. Withdraw the needle and let go of the skin. TaDa! I am triggered! And I did it with out any of my fellow co-workers finding out that I just shot up in the bathroom.
Now in exactly 34.5 hours my wonderful and understanding hubby with do his thang into a cup, we will rush to the fertility clinic with the specimen tucked safely between my legs to keep it warm. Once we arrive the lab tech will wash the sample so that all that is left are my hubby's very best sperm, and exactly 36 hours after the injection they will use his washed sperm to inseminate me.
Let's hope I never have to do a post like this for intramuscular injections because this cycle will work!!! (see that is me being optimistic)
It is 7:30 pm on a Friday night. I am at work, I have no choice but to do the injection in the work bathroom. So I stuff the box into my purse and slink through the hallways.
Once in the bathroom I get a huge length of paper towels and lay it on the back of the toilet tank. I open the box to find a little plastic sleeve with a pre-filled syringe. 
Inside this little syringe is a pre-determined amount of Ovidrel. The best description I have found for what a trigger does is "Ovidrel PreFilled Syringe is used in fertility treatment cycles to help follicles mature and trigger the release of mature eggs from a woman's ovaries."
It is a subcutaneous (just under the skin) injection. The actual injection really isn't that bad b/c it is such a small needle. Barely bigger than my pinkie finger nail. 
Once everything is all lined up on the back of the toilet I tuck my shirt into my bra and fold my jeans down. I will spare you the pics of my bare belly. Next I clean an area about an inch from my belly button with an alcohol swap. Then I squeeze the injection area between two fingers, inject the needle into the skin and squeeze the plunger on the syringe. Withdraw the needle and let go of the skin. TaDa! I am triggered! And I did it with out any of my fellow co-workers finding out that I just shot up in the bathroom. Now in exactly 34.5 hours my wonderful and understanding hubby with do his thang into a cup, we will rush to the fertility clinic with the specimen tucked safely between my legs to keep it warm. Once we arrive the lab tech will wash the sample so that all that is left are my hubby's very best sperm, and exactly 36 hours after the injection they will use his washed sperm to inseminate me.
Let's hope I never have to do a post like this for intramuscular injections because this cycle will work!!! (see that is me being optimistic)
Yay!!! Good Follie Check!
Finally I get to post about something good! I had my follie check for IUI#3 today. I am on cd9 and I have one follicle on the right measuring at 20mm and one on the left at 16mm. The RN doesn't think the smaller one on the left will factor in, which is fine with me, it only takes one!
I will be doing the trigger shot tonight and the IUI will be Sunday morning at 7am, ouch that is early. I am so happy I insisted on coming in for the ultrasound today instead of Monday. Monday may have been too late.
The timing of this thing actually works perfectly. I was really worried all week that the IUI would be Wednesday or Thursday, which would have been tough because the hubster is starting his training for his new job this week. His training goes from 8am - noon Monday - Friday and he still has to work from 2pm - midnight Wednesday - Saturday. So trying to fit an insemination in there would have been rough.
I am oddly optimistic about this cycle. The timing just seems so perfect, plus if I got PG on this cycle I would be due right around the hubinator's b-day. I have said stuff like this before though and it hasn't worked out, but I just have a very good feeling, and I am going to try and keep up the positive additude for the rest of this cycle. No more negative Chrissy! I am going to give this cycle every chance I can, even if it means being annoyingly upbeat.
I will be doing the trigger shot tonight and the IUI will be Sunday morning at 7am, ouch that is early. I am so happy I insisted on coming in for the ultrasound today instead of Monday. Monday may have been too late.
The timing of this thing actually works perfectly. I was really worried all week that the IUI would be Wednesday or Thursday, which would have been tough because the hubster is starting his training for his new job this week. His training goes from 8am - noon Monday - Friday and he still has to work from 2pm - midnight Wednesday - Saturday. So trying to fit an insemination in there would have been rough.
I am oddly optimistic about this cycle. The timing just seems so perfect, plus if I got PG on this cycle I would be due right around the hubinator's b-day. I have said stuff like this before though and it hasn't worked out, but I just have a very good feeling, and I am going to try and keep up the positive additude for the rest of this cycle. No more negative Chrissy! I am going to give this cycle every chance I can, even if it means being annoyingly upbeat.
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