So my tubal Recannalization was today, but as it turned out I didn't need it. The procedure is just like an HSG only they use the dye to guide the wire to open the tube. Well once they got the catheter in they decided to start me on the pain meds b/c I was having a ton of cramping. I was already crying in pain. And leave it to my crappy veins to make things fun. The IV wasn't dripping right so I had four nurses messing with it to try and get the pain drugs flowing. Finally they figured out they needed to be pulled out a little, and I got some relief. So after they got the drugs in me they put the dye into my uterus. The left was open right away, the right began to slowly seep through so the RE decided to try and use just the dye to open it, and it worked!
The RE's theory is that during my first HSG I was in so much pain that my right tube seized and appeared to be completely blocked. Once the drugs started working on me the tube relaxed and opened with some persuasion from the dye. He thinks there was some sludge in there but having me pain free meant that he could work at it more than he could during the HSG when I was crying and writhing in pain. So no wires needed!
I am so excited that I have two open tubes! This means we don't have to move to IVF right away and that IUI has a chance of working now. It also means that I may be able to have an unassisted pregnancy someday. This was one of my big fears when I thought my right tube my never be cleared and my left ovary may never work. I was afraid that my hubby and I would never even have the chance of just having sex and making a baby. Now that is a possibility.
Tomorrow I go in for a follie check to see what my right ovary is cooking up this cycle. Then we will probably do the insemination Friday or Saturday. I am so excited. I am trying not to get my hopes, there is no guarantee that this will work. But knowing that it won't get canceled is a big weight off my shoulders.
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Here we go again...
I started Medicated Round #6 this month. I took my first Clomid pill yesterday, now I am just patiently waiting for the hot flashes and crazies to come a sneaking in. So the plan is that on Tuesday the 16th I will be having my tubal recannulization. I am pretty nervous about the procedure. Apparently it will take about an hour to an hour and a half to complete the whole procedure. The thing I am most scared about is the waking sedation. I know that most people do not realize what is happening during the procedure and don't remember it afterwards either, but I am very nervous that I will be one of the few who realizes what is going on.
I am also very scared that the procedure will not work. It didn't seem like my RE or RN were very confident about the whole thing, and this is our last shot before IVF. I keep having these dreams where I am on an operating table and the doctor has cut open my stomach and is shaking his head saying, "nope this is never going to work."
I thought the Summer of Crohn's, as i like to call it, was hard. That was nothing compared to this hell. The Winter of Infertility. I may not be in as much pain physically right now, but emotionally and mentally it is ten times worse. With the Crohn's stuff I knew that the medicine they gave me would fix me, for at least a little while. I don't have that certainty now, and it is hard not knowing what is going to happen. The thought of never having children is with me everyday, and I just can't shake it. I try and act up-beat and optimistic, but really I feel like nothing will ever work. I may never get to bounce my baby to sleep, or do homework at the dining room table, or kiss boo boos. And that thought just plain sucks.
So let's hope that something goes right for once and my right tube opens up on Tuesday, and I have at least two eggs growing on the right ovary, and nothing else bad happens. Cause I am really not sure how much more crying I can take.
I am also very scared that the procedure will not work. It didn't seem like my RE or RN were very confident about the whole thing, and this is our last shot before IVF. I keep having these dreams where I am on an operating table and the doctor has cut open my stomach and is shaking his head saying, "nope this is never going to work."
I thought the Summer of Crohn's, as i like to call it, was hard. That was nothing compared to this hell. The Winter of Infertility. I may not be in as much pain physically right now, but emotionally and mentally it is ten times worse. With the Crohn's stuff I knew that the medicine they gave me would fix me, for at least a little while. I don't have that certainty now, and it is hard not knowing what is going to happen. The thought of never having children is with me everyday, and I just can't shake it. I try and act up-beat and optimistic, but really I feel like nothing will ever work. I may never get to bounce my baby to sleep, or do homework at the dining room table, or kiss boo boos. And that thought just plain sucks.
So let's hope that something goes right for once and my right tube opens up on Tuesday, and I have at least two eggs growing on the right ovary, and nothing else bad happens. Cause I am really not sure how much more crying I can take.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
My Confidence Got B*itch Slapped Today
So when we started trying to get pregnant I was sure it would happen the first cycle. Not so much. Then when we started clomid, I thought it would be the answer to my prayers. Wrong again. IUI#1 thought for sure that would be it. NOT!!!! After the news of my right tube being blocked I figured we just had to get my Left ovary pumping out some kick ass eggs and we would be all good. Well that got smacked down too.
At my follicle check today there was nothing growing on the left ovary for the third month in a row. 6 beautiful follicles on the right, but that doesn't help me much. And the icing on the sucky sucky cake was that my left ovary is also about half the size of my right. The thought is that we aren't going to be able to do much with lefty.
I was devastated. I really thought we would be able to get pregnant without having to do anything too invasive. Turns out that is not going to be true for me. I spent most of the day trying to distract myself by making lowfat turkey meatloaf, and the rest of the day crying.
So where do we go from here? Well, next month we are going to try to open my right tube with a procedure called a Tubal Recannulization. Here is a link about what exactly is involved in the procedure Because if I tried to explain it I would probably butcher it. It will be done between the 7th and 10th day of my next cycle. I will also continue on Clomid next cycle in the hope that the recannulization works and my right tube opens. Hopefully then we will be able to go ahead with IUI#2 Take 3.
Now, if I don't get pregnant on the next cycle then we will be moving onto IVF. I am lucky enough to have 100% coverage for 3 IVF cycles. Thankfully my company's headquarters is based in Maryland, and they have some pretty rocking state mandated infertility coverage. There is a possibility that the IVF meds will not be covered. If that is the case we may have to take a couple months off to save up for the drugs, which can run $3000-$5000. Ouch.
In addition, before I move onto IVF my RE would like me to lose some weight. He said he doesn't have a strict limit on weight for IVF, but he would like to see me lose about 40-50 pounds. The reason why they want the weight lose is because right now it can be hard to find and see my ovaries. Usually the internal ultrasound is pretty painful for me because the tech has to push so hard to see anything. So the hope is that the more weight I lose, the easier it will be to see my ovaries. Hence the making of the low-fat turkey meatloaf this afternoon.
Trying to lose weight quickly will be a challenge with my Crohn's and buldging disk, but I am determined to get PG. The one thing I have always know was that I wanted to be a Mom. And if I have to give up eating some of my favorite foods to do that, I will. Don't worry though, I will never give up baking. Just might have to change my recipes to lower fat options. Could be fun right? Maybe?
At my follicle check today there was nothing growing on the left ovary for the third month in a row. 6 beautiful follicles on the right, but that doesn't help me much. And the icing on the sucky sucky cake was that my left ovary is also about half the size of my right. The thought is that we aren't going to be able to do much with lefty.
I was devastated. I really thought we would be able to get pregnant without having to do anything too invasive. Turns out that is not going to be true for me. I spent most of the day trying to distract myself by making lowfat turkey meatloaf, and the rest of the day crying.
So where do we go from here? Well, next month we are going to try to open my right tube with a procedure called a Tubal Recannulization. Here is a link about what exactly is involved in the procedure Because if I tried to explain it I would probably butcher it. It will be done between the 7th and 10th day of my next cycle. I will also continue on Clomid next cycle in the hope that the recannulization works and my right tube opens. Hopefully then we will be able to go ahead with IUI#2 Take 3.
Now, if I don't get pregnant on the next cycle then we will be moving onto IVF. I am lucky enough to have 100% coverage for 3 IVF cycles. Thankfully my company's headquarters is based in Maryland, and they have some pretty rocking state mandated infertility coverage. There is a possibility that the IVF meds will not be covered. If that is the case we may have to take a couple months off to save up for the drugs, which can run $3000-$5000. Ouch.
In addition, before I move onto IVF my RE would like me to lose some weight. He said he doesn't have a strict limit on weight for IVF, but he would like to see me lose about 40-50 pounds. The reason why they want the weight lose is because right now it can be hard to find and see my ovaries. Usually the internal ultrasound is pretty painful for me because the tech has to push so hard to see anything. So the hope is that the more weight I lose, the easier it will be to see my ovaries. Hence the making of the low-fat turkey meatloaf this afternoon.
Trying to lose weight quickly will be a challenge with my Crohn's and buldging disk, but I am determined to get PG. The one thing I have always know was that I wanted to be a Mom. And if I have to give up eating some of my favorite foods to do that, I will. Don't worry though, I will never give up baking. Just might have to change my recipes to lower fat options. Could be fun right? Maybe?
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